痛いほど　好きなのに

우리 동주야 ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-11-13T16:28:52Z

can't express how excited i am that minmin is going to aussie to film. dongjoo and daji are such epic names i die.

BUT. as much as i want him happy, i hope it ~~flops~~ does not do very well (perfectionist dictionary, sorry if it sounded too harsh at first LOL, flopping is subjective) D: so that it doesnt have to come to singapore and i dont have to endure things like "OMG DID YOU WATCH PARADISE MEADOW, DONGJOO IS SO HOT OMG I HAVE TO MARRY DONGJOO" and i'll be like *rolls eyes x100000000000000000* hello that is my minmin and he's not called dongjoo and WTF IS DONGJOO its beyond country bumpkin-ish ARGH. okay randomly getting pissed off but yeah dongjoo better flop or singapore better not bring it in, oh my dear minmin, i'll fly to find you, please dont come to singapore.

this is the oh-so-goodlooking dongjoo. will wave such a cardboard if he ever comes. scare all the fans away.

ANYHOW, TEAM SHINWOO FIGHTING! so far only covermeblackpung_seonand i are on team shinwoo LOL.

and i made extremely made extremely edible kimbap today. wonderful ♥

bored at starbucks LOL.

2009-11-11T11:07:29Z

I kissed a changmin and I liked it.

Which song was this lyric from?

lost D:

2009-11-04T16:00:39Z

so where do we go next?

fandom is just fucked up D:

2009-11-02T11:48:50Z

keeping the faith :D

~~especially in minmin and his appa~~

OH MINMIN.

2009-10-15T16:16:03Z

you're the beat that my heart skipped. ~~a few thousand times~~.

favourite boy in the whole wide world <3

2009-10-13T14:40:12Z

doesnt know how to ~~pee~~ drink water properly. god knows there must be a reason why i love him so much. pung_seonshowed me this and i swear i was on the verge of fainting/dying, whatever that comes close. ~~boy doesnt know how to wear his shirts properly too D:~~

and this boy woke me up from the most pleasant dream i was having, was about to kiss and go out with an unidentifiable boy (lets just call him the boy of my dreams) and he YIRONA YIRONA YIRONA-ed me (my bloody alarm tone LOL) and i had to get out of bed and go to school. I DIDNT EVEN SEE THE BOY'S FACE D: D: D: stupid minmin D: *LE SIGH* such a pleasant dream in ages without anyone dying or anything and i had to be rudely awaken from it D: D: D:

i hate 213 D: LIKE REALLY HATE HATE HATE ARGH.

covermeblack ,movie tomorrow yes/yes? bring tissue cos i bet i'll cry.

♥♥♥♥♥

2009-10-06T16:18:11Z

omg lj ate my post D:

anyhow it was chuseok over the weekend and the girls and i ~~attempted to carry~~ carried lanterns near shiqi's house :D

ULTIMATE FAIL LOL. it was supposed to be like, TVXQ!

attempts to roast a leaf.

OMG JAYCE LIT A MATCHSTICK.

apologies for the narcissism but i like my legs a lot LOL.

epic fail.

good night :D

will you still love me in the morning?

LOVE IS BLIND!

2009-10-01T15:35:38Z

BEYOND BLIND, as pung_seon and i were discussing. "if it weren't blind, there's no need for makeup and pushup bras", as quoted from my textbook LOL.

which is probably the only logical conclusion i can come up with as i pick the boy on the right over the boy on the left.

DID I MENTION THAT CHUN LOOKS STUNNINGLY HOT IN THE AIRPORT TODAY WITH WHATEVER HE WAS WEARING ♥♥♥♥♥♥ unlike a certain forehead-revealing boy all dressed up in whatever i think does not look good on him. WHO WANTS TO BET HE'LL WEAR THE SAME THING BACK FROM CHEENALAND? i bet my last penny in my piggy bank, any takers?

ANYHOW, ling'er and i have been studying together with princess and tako and hardly getting anything into our brains OH DEAR D: and surfing along webbies like weheartit.com and cardboardlove.com makes us sad sad sad people LE SIGH.

very well said, imo. i actually have someone i have in mind that i really want to annoy for the rest of my life.

maybe, baby..

2009-09-27T07:13:19Z

wheeee we're on holiday and i keep overdosing on starbucks and its making me a broke kid, i should head out to macs once again and drink cheaper drinks like milkshake cos yeah, its cheap and im broke and im saving for an ipod (cos bara died on me after three long years, poor cranky little bara D:)

choongie left for london already oh choong i'll miss you, send me your address so that i can randomly write letters and send them to you.

does anyone have an idea if century eggs can be sent through mail cos my friend in america is desperate and she misses singaporean food and demands that i send her century eggs?

cos fang'er and ling'er think that this applies to me D: not weird not weird but meant to be with minmin <3

food poisoning D: D: D:

2009-09-19T16:29:13Z

i think im amazing just like that :D managed to poison myself with my own cooking and now i've been reduced to eating non-solid foods and going hungry every hour D: how wonderful. to think my rosti was tasting really good and i added cheese to it and i think im lactose-intolerant and somehow getting poisoned was so wtf my mother scolded me D: D: D: how upsetting and demoralising D:

and i had starbucks today woooooo. ling'er and i were going a little mad in starbucks just now :D and now tako is supposed to go on a match making date with princess next wednesday. i feel like a proud parent WTF :D

eunice leaving on thursday omgggggggg D: D: D: EUNICE BABEH D: D: D: ireland is so far YOU MUST WRITE TO ME D: D: D: and its for such a long time i promise i'll try to save then we can meet halfway along like, france or something OMG IRELAND D: and why are you flying at 5am how can i send you off D: D: D: SAD.

okay since we havent seen min these days (COMPLETELY MIA-ING ARE YOU SURE HE'S FILMING A DRAMA AT ALL?) ...

SO CUTE <3

BESTIES FTW this picture makes me LOL.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

stupidity is probably god's greatest gift :D

2009-09-17T15:21:08Z

otherwise titled, byebye michie michie.

michiemichie was my best buddy in school and we ran away from teachers and got into trouble and tried running away a bit more. until we got caught and one day we both grew up and now she's heading over to chicago to study history, classics and archaeology (and i honestly have no idea why) but anyhow mich, love you loads.

(guest appearance by cynthia the retard whom we both love a lot)

byebye mich, best partner in crime D:

special boy #1

2009-09-13T13:31:35Z

HAS ANYONE WATCHED THE CHANGMIN VERSION OF MIROTIC AND WRONG NUMBER HAHAHAHAHAHA IF YOU HAVE, DO TELL ME WHAT YOU THOUGHT COS I WAS BUSY WTF-ING AT CHANGMIN THROUGHOUT THE THING. nearly died crying cos it was so epic minmin was trying to act cool and HAHAHAH FAIL :D i showed yuting and she wtf-ed at hime too whee so fun right, life is interesting with minmin around.

YUTING! i have a xmxg exclassmate omgggg disturbing D: she was going on and on about leeminho (OMG HE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE YOU GOING?) and about yunho (OMG HE'S SO MAN, THAT JAEJOONG NOT MAN AT ALL) and i was like o.o *calls ling'er immediately to complain about gay jae. JAE IS SO MAN D: and she was like why they dont come singapore and i was like =/ =/ =/

anyway! i saw this like.. disturbing sight today. this auntie (not so young and not so old) with her face full of makeup and her lips so pink, she was wearing this damn transparent pair of offwhite tights and HOT PINK UNDERWEAR under it. i mean like, she was not very skinny OKAY FINE SHE WAS FAT and it was a disturbing sight OMG burns my eyes. and she was walking in front of me when we alighted the bus and i was like O.O OMG DISTURBING D:

obviously nothing new in my life cos yeah fandom is moving at such a slow rate, school is moving too fast, we're getting old too quickly, my wallet gets empty too early, what else.

DID I SAY THAT CHUN IS LOOKING HOTTER AND HOTTER EACH DAY 8D 8D 8D

HAPPY HOUSE.

2009-09-06T04:53:34Z

AND PIGLET, POOH AND PINK PANTHER UNDERWEAR..

BOY WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME ONE DAY. ~~OMG UNTIL HE WAS EIGHTEEN WTFFFFFF.~~

MEME :D

2009-08-30T15:35:31Z

1. Choose a picture of the funniest face on your person.

cos this is super epic.

2. Choose a picture of your person eating.

uncanny resemblance :D

3. Choose a picture of your person with an animal.

AWWWWWWWWWWWW.

4. Choose a picture of your person with a member of the opposite sex.

and we dont see his face :D

5. Choose a picture of where you would have sex with this person.

IN THE CINEMA HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

6. Choose a picture of your favourite outfit on this person.

:D :D :D

7. Choose a picture of your person smiling.

8. Choose a picture of your person half/naked..

this is not even HALF.

9. Choose a picture of your person doing an outdoor activity.

this is technically not applicable cos changmin is incapable of doing any sports 8D

10. Choose your favourite picture of this person..

*chokes on water and dies*

okay this one then :D

答えが　怖いのは　あなたを　愛しすぎて。。

so much it scares me.

2009-08-25T16:05:33Z

its been long since i last saw changmin D: lawsuit seems like its going to take a long time = no see changmin.

school's taking up a whole lot of my life now cos i seem to end later than 7 everyday, either that or i have to tuition kids until 8 plus, so thats not much time for me to maintain a healthy social life, be a proper fangirl and attempt to pull up my gpa. maybe i should stop screwing up my own exam papers, that will make my life more enjoyable.

i think i need to see a doctor, theres seriously something wrong with me and my appetite and the way i think. wrong wrong wrong.

colors is such a nice and pretty song i think im getting it. white or black cover, anyone?

ほら　舞い降りた雪がこの手に溶けては
まるで何もなかったように消えてく
ねえ　大切なことは壊れやすいから
僕たちにはつかめない　静かに漂うだけ..

so this is love.

2009-08-20T15:36:50Z

the place we are in together is heaven, no matter where it is ♥♥♥♥♥

nothing better than that.

2009-08-16T09:47:10Z

love 12:34 ♥ ♥ ♥ please do allow for some bias cos its min who wrote it :D

and i completely take back everything i said about malteses growing up to be ugly cos mangdoongie is beyond cute (and she has a very cute pink collar!) ~~I WONDER IF MIN BOUGHT IT~~ when is my copy going to arrive D:

dead.

2009-08-13T02:10:28Z

OH MY GOODNESS SO CUTE DOONGIE YOU LUCKY THING ~~CHANGMIN PLEASE MARRY ME LIKE, NOW~~.

here we go again..

2009-08-10T14:09:17Z

no idea why but i really really like this picture. oh changmin D:

not looking forward to tomorrow, not looking forward to tomorrow, not looking forward to tomorrow D: WHAT THE HELL IS A PRE-TEST HELLO SCHOOL HASNT EVEN STARTED (NOT AT LEAST) AND WE HAVE A TEST TMR AND ITS DUE ON WEDNESDAY OMG AND NEXT FRIDAY I HAVE A PRESENTATION I HATE PUBLIC SPEAKING OMG WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY D: ITS MOVING TOO FAST AND I CANNOT TAKE IT *whines*

nearly half dead cos it was fang's birthday and we had fun baking, cooking dinner, cheering for mr goh chok tong LOL, laughing at singapore idol wannabes, singing karaoke, singing on the streets, watching reruns of shows, eating cake, watching housebunny, and sleeping at 530. and waking up early for more talk and more tv <3 i love my friends.

CHANGMIN IS TOO YOUNG TO GET MARRIED D:

2009-08-05T16:30:51Z

even if its on screen HELLO THAT BOY IS 21 AND HE'S GETTING MARRIED LOL. i can totally imagine my heart cracking into the five billion pieces that it has once cracked into (not to mention a couple of times too), oh my poor broken heart.

though the storyline sounds like the cheesey kind of love story that i actually enjoy watching, oh i think i wont be able to take it, seeing that he'll get married and divorce WHAT IS THIS, THE BOY IS ONLY 21~!!!! (i sound like ron's mummy talking about harry potter HE'S ONLY FIFTEEN! oh sorry about that heehee was reading harry again just now)

i ate two main courses for dinner today. something must be wrong with me. like, probably feeding an entire family of worms in my stomach or something (and then changmin will be feeding an entire clan cos i think he's wayyyyyyyy skinnier than me) i need to exercise though, feeling fat and all D:

GOT TO STOP SHOPPING THIS IS UNCONTROLLABLE.

OH SCHOOL'S GOING TO START IN A WEEK OMG IT ONLY DAWNED ON ME YESTERDAY THAT SCHOOL IS GOING TO START IN OFFICIALLY ONE WEEK OMG PANIC AND COURTCASE HASNT ENDED OMG SCHOOL + FANDOM CLASH AGAIN OMG I CAN FORESEE THAT I'LL HAVE NO SLEEP OR THAT I'LL CHOOSE FANDOM OVER SCHOOL AND THEN GET SUCKY GRADES THAT WILL MAKE MY MOOD BAD OMG WHY SCHOOL WHY. whee done ranting.

just cos i havent seen this in so long D:

明日は来るから！

2009-08-02T16:20:03Z

not exactly very excited about tomorrow coming though! its just.. ARGH so scary D:

changmin looks... ~~bad quite bad doesnt look~~ good his normal self in the airport today! ~~looks like he aged 50 years and that ahbeng necklace of his makes me wanna strangle him.~~ so long never see him already then come out looking like this TSKTSKTSKTSK. chun looks cute with his weirdo face. chun ♥

and my mp3 player has just gone cranky D: D: D: thinking of dumping it for an ipod but im a broke kid now and the whole world owes me money D:

mother doesnt want to go to europe though daddy decided it would be fun to go (and it was cheap cheap too!) HOW CAN SHE NOT WANT TO GO TO EUROPE D: there goes my dreams of seeing paris in winter SIGH MUMMY. and then i was like HOW ABOUT TURKEY (cos it was cheap cheap too and mich said it was a nice place) and daddy gave me the most wtf-are-you-saying look and ignored me. SIGH EUROPE. should have taken up her offer to go to paris last summer with my aunts OMG WHAT WAS I THINKING D: so now i shall find new ways to persuade her into going on a holiday, that woman sounds as if she wants to be locked up in singapore for life omg so scary D:

school's gonna start in about.. 10 days and im not prepared DAMNIT I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL *turns whiny*

listening to upon this rock makes me feel that im in church. (upon this rock of reveration, *sniggers in a corner*)

雨降るときには　君の傘に　なろう
風吹くときには　君の壁に　なろう

cos we're young only once..

2009-07-30T14:59:10Z

WHEE~

この広い世界に　君に会えて　its destiny
幸せな日が　きっと　続くように

遠そうね。。

2009-07-28T10:48:15Z

not a time to get emo, not a time to get emo.

completely not liking the idea of min going to act D: ~~now thats when all the xmxgs arrive and go OMG CHANGMIN IS SO HANDSOME.~~ RAR not liking it at all. i can imagine one day when the whole of singapore starts watching heaven's postman/the yunho show/paradise ranch and going OMG ______ IS SO HANDSOME. when that comes, someone please prevent me from killing anyone.

stomach pain pain pain D: i think it was something i cooked LOL. its been feeling uncomfortable since i ate D:

i was packing my wardrobe again and its scaring me cos its growing larger and larger by the day i had difficulties squeezing in a lot of shirts and they are all white in colour *fails at life* i have officially 20 white shirts, 10 black shirts, a rather large number of jeans which i shall not mention cos its really ...... uh huh. and more fail, i got 2 paul smith tops and a ralph top and a few mango tops and an armani jacket and D: D: D: im supposed to be saving for a trip damnit D: got to learn to control the money.

sen has been in camp for the longest time ever and i miss her a lot cos we dont go out and no one talks to me about the most fail moments of life and how sad and pathetic our lives are D: totally enjoying the feeling of indulging in self pity how sadistic can this be.

was thinking of going on an aimless drive and i figured that i have no car and no license so maybe i'll just take the cab D: its probably good to think about going for driving lessons now but im so lazy and everyone can drive except me now, how fail D:

because i will look on the bright side of life.

2009-07-24T17:45:55Z

school is starting and its time for me to buck up and pull up my gpa and hopefully mummy will reward me with another holiday or something. never really hated school so much since forever cos i always kinda topped in school since kindergarten but this feels weird to be at the bottom of the cohort for once in my life and it makes me feel dumb and damages my very large ego so yeah, all ready to attempt to improve my grades. go jayce go.

and i think yunho is such a nice and wonderful and perfect boy, helping out at the orphanage and all. AND I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE SAY HE'S FAKE omg wtf how can people be so mean OMG kind acts such as these also get criticised WHAT THE HELL IS OUR WORLD COMING TO. lol i usually dont go on and on about yunho but LOL today i just suddenly felt that he's a very perfect boy so yunho ♥♥♥

omg one of the rare yunho pics that i actually have. the min:yunho pic ratio is like 50:1 or something LOL. but for today, OH YUNHO.

bored D:

2009-07-21T14:24:08Z

please be mine came yesterday LOL. along with sen's awesomely cute bag (which i suddenly want to get but i have loads of bags D:). its a cute book LOL had a good time dying over yoochun and changmin's calves LOL.

granny's quilt part 2.

min has amazing pajamas pants. and he sleeps in expensive shirts that always pile up in my gmarket carts and never get checked out cos rationale thinking says that i have excessive longsleeved shirts that are inappropriate for singaporean weather.

BUYING BALLET FLATS HAHAHAHA *fails at life* after my little stint in the JB shoe shop, i have finally found my dream pair of ballet flats and they are lying in my gmarket cart awaiting checkout. my mother is going to murder me cos we have no more space on the shoeracks and i refuse to send my heels for repair/ throw them away so the shoe rack is clogged with my shoes that i hardly wear. le sigh.

oh yes. DID I MENTION I GAINED THREE KG IN A WEEK. HOW SCARY.

痛いほど 好きなのに